HAPPINESS!
at Sunday, November 16, 2008; 9:48 PM

I PASSED MY DRIVING!
now i have to clock my 25hrs and pass the Hazard Perception Test.
LICENSE HERE I COME!
i hope daddy get me a car asap~

I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN,
i know its pathetically short.
But i just love it.

KISS ASS PPL!

The Truth
at Monday, November 10, 2008; 2:49 PM

How do you feel when you said, that you will not wait for an answer that wont ever come?
What do you think if after months of broke up, just cos of "i wont wait", he suddenly says, let get back, and he really loves you?

What would you do, if you friends told you, you deserve better than him?
What would you do, if his frens told you there is more than what it seems?
What would you do, if you realized all that he said were lies and he blamed it on others?

So much for,

all i did was go sch, home, dota, with weide they all.
and suddenly, there was dinners with meihui, and movies with kerlyns?

i only went for 2 chalet, junkai chalet and poly class chalet.
suddenly, tsuting appeared and he claims that " i go alot of chalet"

Please, can the readers.
Leave a comment at my tag.

I need guidance and advice.
Before I shut the doors to him.

Good to Bad.
at Friday, October 31, 2008; 7:41 AM

To be honest, it wasn't such a bad night.
Had cigg, pizza, nasi goreng.
Blending all of my brain juice just to get my 2000 word essay done.
We were laughing all the way over the stupid Domino pizza operator which we called upteem times and dont understand: MELVILLE. until like the 3rd or 4th time, Dannia slanged and the fucker got it right. i cant believe i laughed til i had to sit on the floor. me and xinfang was like WTF! and our dear april was so sexy and unafraid of the cold. I SWEAR i was chattering.

Had pizza, and tried to get the essay done, til i asked this guy fren of mine. How is my ex doing. and then i told him im worried abt my ex and stuff and then it goes like this.

"We know you love him"
"He knows it too"
"Let it go"

ok, so i am some fucking bitch who 死缠烂打。
fine.

"You two no trust"
"You oso control him so much"

YES. i am a control freak.
Who demands too much by acting for 3 things.
Dont hang out late with girls, if got girl call or what tell me, I am fine.
Dont go to club, but it fine to drink with ur bros.
Dont smoke.
Damn, i didnt know, i was THIS demanding.

"That day he go chalet"
"then He go to the rich girl house and ton"
"cos he no money to go home"

What i good excuse, can i go anyone i just met in sch and SLP OVER?
cos i got no money tk last bus home ;)

"Ya then he slp"
"The girl seduce him"
"But he dont care her"

CAN U BELIEVE IT?
FREE ONE, YOU DONT WANT?

"He still wearing the ring"

Would u stay over at some random and half-stranger's of an opposite sex's hse.
and claim that, I WEAR THE Ring and YET, she seduces him.

All this is bullshit.
I am a flirt, i flirt in game.
But, in reality, i know my limits.
Not like you.

You made me a fool.
A totally fool.
U SAID I MADE U FEEL LIKE A FOOL.
JUST BECAUSE I FLIRTED IN A GAME.
I AM THE COMPLETE FOOL.
WHO TRUSTED U
WHO LOVED U STILL AFTER ALL THIS SHIT.
WHO BELIEVE IN U.
and look, i am a failure GF.
im a flirt, a girl who likes to flaunt, a girl who does nothing but controls her ex.
Ain't i awesome?

You happy now with my downfall?
Are u happy to see me crumpled and smashed?

I HATE YOU.
Never again, will i believe you. NEVER.

Disturbia
at Tuesday, October 21, 2008; 11:44 AM

I need no one.
I will be by myself.

FUCKALLOFYOU.

MADNESS
at Sunday, October 19, 2008; 11:11 PM

Today, was a great day.
When to Serpentine Dam, for this Thai Buddhist Festival.
Where everyone celebrates for monks who have passed the test and graduated.
Its a rare scene, the view, atmosphere, is nothing that can be experienced back in SG.
like what Acham Brahm said, we worship Virtue, Peace and Compassion.
Yeah, i have yet to find the inner peace.

Yesterday, had BBQ at uncle gerard's hse.
AWESOME BEEF, his dog is super big.
His wife is so nice to talk too.
Had fun eating and chatting.
But nxt wk i wont make it for BBQ at Andre uncle's hse.
GOT TO WORK!

THE DAY BEFORE. THE CURSED OF THE KA ZUA.
OK! i kept seeing this figure, like a cockroach at my desk @ abt 2am.
i thought my mind was playing tricks.
as i kick the sub woofer and stuff, nth came out.
then in the early morning, my dear mother said. WHR IS THE PHONE?
i search my bed, and put it under my mattress, and guess what?
THE KOKOROACH WAS ON MY KNN FUCKING HAND.
AND THE LEGS FUCKING GIRLY CAN?
then i scream, stand on the chair, refuse to slp on the bed.
ya, after a treasure Hunt, MY MOTHER SMACKED IT.
my mother was my savior, she is JESUS.
okies, it creeps me, nw i keep seeing cockroach shadow but no cockroach.
the spirit of that coco is HAUNTING me.
fuck it.

Listened to Jay's new songs.
Whenever i hear 说好的幸福呢 i would cry.
i just upsets me so much.
even 花海 makes me sad.
im emomomomomomo~

i guess, no one is reading this blog either.
its gonna close shop too.

my heart is so numb, its still yearning.

Changed
at Thursday, September 25, 2008; 10:09 PM

He said i changed.
Im not longer the one he used to love.
Am I just that bad?
Is it wrong that i want to make myself look beautiful.

Yes, i lacked of my smiles.
Im trying to find it.
My looks might have changed.
But my heart has not.

Now i know.
I have been judged by looks.
Its just human nature.

You're the one that changed not me.
Give me back that one, that loved me for who i am, in the beginning.

LOST & FOUND
at Wednesday, September 24, 2008; 11:32 PM