Interesting Facts. at Monday, July 21, 2008; 11:55 PM
I was thinking, if i ever had kids, what would i name them.
Sons i would say:
Zero (cause in anime this name is always for cool and hot guys) Lance (Nice ah) Xeno (creative ma, no body have)
Daughter would be:
Luna (like moon ma..) Ophelia
I dunno i like weird names, names tat are special, and individual and my darling cass told me these.
clinical says:you cannot call your son zero clinical says:wait he go sch they all make fun of him clinical says:they tell him he sure get zero for tests gerie says if i have a son, he would be called Zero. Cos all anime Zero-s are HOT and COOL. says:ok gerie says if i have a son, he would be called Zero. Cos all anime Zero-s are HOT and COOL. says:so er gerie says if i have a son, he would be called Zero. Cos all anime Zero-s are HOT and COOL. says:call him CLOUD gerie says if i have a son, he would be called Zero. Cos all anime Zero-s are HOT and COOL. says:like FF7 gerie says if i have a son, he would be called Zero. Cos all anime Zero-s are HOT and COOL. says:so handsome clinical says:no clinical says:wait when rain they will ask him why he not outside clinical says:yesterdayclinical says:got this article in the newspaper clinical says:this guy, his name is TWELVE. then he's in the army, he's an oct. gerie says my daughter will be Luna and son will be Lance. says:name called twelve gerie says my daughter will be Luna and son will be Lance. says:so lame clinical says:so he gave ppl invitations, he wrote there oct twelve. someone though it was the date, and went on october 12 gerie says:LOL clinical says:another person, her name was candida, after the song. however, candida is also the biological name for yeast infection gerie says:wth gerie says:so suey clinical says:hahah yaaa clinical says:then got another clinical says:his name is bright clinical says:hs teachers told him. you never get a for your tests ah. not so bright clinical says:and his friends tell him, dont worry if it's dark, bright is here
So i shall say, i shall not have kids, mayb parents are the blame for awful names. Like mine. LAU POR HIA. 刘宝霞. and all those weird and funny names people give me. So i kids deserve better.
Sunday 20th July: Burma Flood Fund raising.
GOD it was so busy, all the 500 curry puffs and spring rolls were sold out, and so were the ham chim bangs and vadai. SO BUSY CAN! and there are really nice people who dont want the change and generously donate to help the people in burma, u people are blessed.
Although the health inspector sucks big time, i got no choice yeah? u people are so head-over-heels about hygiene then so be it. Take food, no collect money, wear gloves. OK! u sell and a long queue and ask ppl to fucking wait for change when the cashier isn't ard and then when i give ppl change, u say i unhygienic and threaten to shut our stall, U SMART U DO LA. SI ANG MOH! and bloody cashier MIA. thanks man. Dont wanna reckon everything. BUT it was a nice place, The Esplanade at Fremantle. Here are some CUTE and NICE stuff at fremantle. ITS BLOODY COLD there but its nice.
Thats all Folks. Enjoy!
Back in One Piece at Thursday, July 17, 2008; 3:25 PM
YES! GERIE IS A HAPPY GIRL. my boy didnt ditch me. so im very happy.
LALALALALAS.
LAI KIANLOONG IS STILL MINE! (ok im obsessive....)
LUA, MUACKS.
Fool or Tool? at Wednesday, July 16, 2008; 7:23 PM
Am i a fool? It's been 2 weeks, and he still needs time. He told me, i need time to think, i will give you an ans asap.
But 14days, 336hours, isn't enough for him to decide.
I am hanging on the line, waiting for an answer. The answer will determine where do i head towards. Move on and get a new life, or work hard and continue to give my best in this r/s? Single or Attached?
Or am i just a tool? Used already is 2nd handed, buy a new one? Need that time, then take out from your box, then im handy. No need me, just put in back into the box, but you need me, u know, i am still in the box.
What am i? Things that you have said and done, hurts me so much. What's done is done, the damage is done.
If my love had been fake, what was ever real? If I'm unworthy of your love, why say that you love me?
Yes, I'm trying, trying to be what you want me to be. Trying my best not to think too much. Trying my best to be happy. Trying my best to be a girl, a girl that u want me to be.
But if the answer was a negative answer. Trying would be pointless. Trying to move on, would have to take place. Trying to forget, Trying to pretend.
I look fine, but I'm not. I don't cry doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. I may be strong, but I can be weak.
Give me a heart, made of steel. So i wouldn't hurt and break. So that it would melt, when the time is right.
Make me one that is emotionless. Then there wouldn't be love & hate nor would there be any sadness or pain...
Day #44 at Saturday, July 12, 2008; 12:33 AM
Gerie is doing better now. Im trying my best not to think abt it. Always, prepared for the worse.
Is it worth the wait? His answer will determine, is it worth it or not.
Dont hope for the best, but work the for best.
Yes! Gerie, you can do better than this.
4 In The Morning, the song. at Wednesday, July 9, 2008; 10:16 PM
Waking up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had its say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think When I let it sink in It's all over me I'm lying here in the dark I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot & all I know is You've got to give me everything Nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [CHORUS] I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right All I wanted was to know I'm safe Don't want to lose the love I've found Remember when you said that you would change Don't let me down It's not fair how you are I can't be complete, can you give me more? & all I know is You got to give me everything & nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [CHORUS] I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right Oh please, you know what I need Save all your love up for me We can't escape the love Give me everything that you have & all I know is You got to give me everything & nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [CHORUS] I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right (Give you everything) (Give you all of me) Dont think too much... at ; 9:16 PM
Yes, everyone told me, dont think too much. Exactly, how much is considered 'too much'?
Let me share with you some things.
If your bf/gf tells u, i dunno i love u anot? and tell you he/she needs time to think about it. How do u feel? How do u feel if coincidentally, 2 person who are so close, happen to have same problems. Tell me how do you feel.
Many people told me. Dont Cry, no worth it. Let it go, continue oso not worth it. He can hurt u now, he will do it again. No point continuing. He dont appreciate/cherish, let it be.
And im glad, that people think of the same reason as me. He has another woman. Which is what i had thought of in the first place.
How can i man's heart change that fast? i do not know. But who ever is the girl who stole him away, i can only say, Well done. You did a good job, u got him in the state you want him to be. And you have hope.
Like what sherlee told me, No point getting upset over someone who doesnt love me & upset those that loves me.
Yupp, he says he still love me. I hope it isn't a lie. But what does he has to lose, cos he got 2 choice, and i've got none.
So tell me now, am i thinking too much?
The tears i've cried at Sunday, July 6, 2008; 11:55 PM
Gerie, why are you crying? will crying bring him back? will crying solve the problem? will crying ease ur pain?
There is no need time to think if you love someone. If you love someone, your heart can nvr deny it.
I had nvr thought abt giving up this love, but you did. You have the right to be happy, so do i. In love, there is only one person who can be happy. and the person holding the power nw, is you.
Time is like a blade, cutting me slowly. Not letting my heart die instantly, but torturing me slowly.
Out there in a winter of 2 degrees, i learnt hw my tears can burn so badly. Crying is painful.
My Love that is gone. at Saturday, July 5, 2008; 10:58 PM
I realised hw much have i sucked in this relationship, this one and a half years. I realised maybe he, or god, is making me go through everything he has been thru.
Yes, I took too long to understand him. Yes, I took too long to realized how much he meant to me. Yes, I took too little time to notice him. Yes, I'm immature. Yes, and its totally my fault.
Tell me, why am i such a stupid woman. Why am i thinking all this silly things, and making myself cry? Why am i crying so badly? Why do i find it so hard not to think abt him? Why am i so attached to him? Why did i not appreciate things he did for me? Why am i so selfish?
Because it never came across my mind that he would walk out of me one fine day.
I nvr thought that one day i would wake up and not have his voice. I nvr thought that one day i wouldn't be able to smell him again. I nvr thought that one day he would get sick and tired of everything. I nvr thought that one day he would stop loving me. I nvr thought that one day, there would be no one slping beside me.
I made him changed, i thought it would have made me happier. It did not at all, because he became someone else. He is not longer the one i loved from the start. In this relationship, i had stopped doing the loving for quite sometime. I had be taking all the love i could get from him. I hardly woke him up for sch anymore. I hardly sms me good morning anymore. I hardly find subjects to talk to him anymore. I hardly make time for him anymore. But he nvr once complained, but yet i complained so much abt him. Abt him being irritating, abt him being not understanding. Actually for all these times, he had been v understanding.. but i didnt realise it til later.
That's when his words: "It's too lat had killed me straight"
Yes, it's too late gerie. Too late.
My parents got sick of seeing me crying and not eating much. They told me: What is yours, will be yours. If he loves u, he ll eventually come back to you.
Love is selfish, but love isn't the way i had let it become. If he says that it is too late, what else can i do? i cant turn back time. If i cant love him anymore, all i can do is wait, and wait. Even if it takes forever, i ll wait. I can only give u love in the form of respect, do what u want to do. i wont be a person who will mess up ur life again.
Its the last love, i can give to you, my love. My one and only love, Jianlun.
Tattered and Torn at ; 1:52 AM
I fell and crumble. tell me hw to stop the tears from flowing. tell me hw to sleep without wetting my pillow. tell me hw to get my love back, without getting hurt. How?
LOVE at Friday, July 4, 2008; 4:16 PM
I lost myself to L.O.V.E i realized how love can give me power and strength, and overnight, it turned me into a mad woman.
I cried for nights, just thinking about all kinds of possibilities. I cried cos all that i ever speak and think abt is him, but its no longer him. How ironic that my own words can hurt so much. Im just a pain in the ass
Yes, i think too much. But a woman's instincts would never fail.
What happened to the man who used to love me? What happened to the calm and confident me that drove me nuts to think that i would lose my man.
Maybe Im no longer me, Maybe Im no longer the one in his eyes.
I learnt L.O.V.E in the price of Pain.
I'm sry but i still love you.HAPPY 18 MONTH ANNIVERSARY <3 at Tuesday, July 1, 2008; 12:12 AMHAPPY 18 MTHS MY DEAR! time flies, but u're always mine.